104632071 : in the early days, more than 15 years ago, I was so  confused as to whether I wanted to be a day trader, swing trader or an investor.  I was very afraid of making mistakes and I kept changing my trading plan. if the price reached my target, I upped my target higher to try make more profits. if the price hit my stop loss, I fervently held onto my stocks to pray that the price would miraculously go up again.
Finally, few years back, I got my first big break in Draft Kings with a 4000usd profit overnight which I promptly lost to other random investments. I was always the last to get in and first to get out. I was so anxious to hold on tightly my earnings and capital.  always managed to get in at the highest point before people started selling and to get out at the lowest point before people started buying again.  I sold everything and didn't touch my account again for more than a year.  
Fast forward to today.
I have been consistently profitable for the past 2 years. It is not a fantastic result but I am happy because I still make more than putting my money in banks.  I still make silly mistakes. the most recent one was not checking stock valuation before I bought it as a day trade and I got stuck. For every mistake I make, I make sure not to repeat it. I believe then I would get better and better with time, discipline and consistency.
I see that the hardest part of trading is not the learning part (it is honestly not rocket science), but the period of time it takes to become truly invested in what you do all day long.  During this time, you want to fantasize, congratulate yourself for daring to take on easy profits, then curse and swear when market turns, get fearful, give up, come back, repeat process. Ultimately, if you do decide to stay on and learn, it is a decision well made because this is the day you decide that you are not going to gamble anymore.